A beautiful letter written after Susun's workshop, Women, Witches and Weeds held at Rowe Cam and Conference Center
I have just arrived home from your workshop at Rowe. I can't believe the inspiration and excitement I feel right now. There were a few things that I wanted to say to you in the real world rather than the impersonal world of email but I did not understand what I was feeling until after lunch on Sunday. After lunch I could see that you were leaving to return home and there were many others with things to say to you, so I decided to let it brew a little longer. I know you are very busy and do not expect you to respond but I want to put my thoughts and appreciation out there.
I feel secure in your presence and safe and at the same time I am intimidated by you and you make me a little uncomfortable. Some of this has to do with the very new knowledge that I have gained from you and some of it is my own fear of confrontation and open communication. On Saturday, I was a bothered by this and my mixed feelings about the workshop. I was excited to be getting so much information but felt fear and confusion about my discomfort.
And then......I began having some new insights about myself. Incredible connections were made between things that happened a long time ago and my current reactions to people and their attitudes towards me. I am in no means in a place of full understanding nor do I ever expect to be. However, I am on the path.
This weekend was a huge help in keeping me on that I path and I am very grateful to you for your assistance. Sometimes a little discomfort goes a long way. I have a long road and a lot of work, but I am happy to be where I am even though I cannot yet see around the bend in the staircase.