Conversations About L[.]Ife
A Dialogue in Three Parts
Written by L[.]Ife A.
Part 1: Womb
^Mystery is God
`…no, Mystery is Mystery.
Fear of mystery.
^Mystery always feared, right?
`No, mystery evolved to be feared.
`Mystery once venerated.
`When god was woman.
^But god man.
`No god projection onto mystery.
^Then how mystery woman?
`Women also projection.
^Man left out.
`As is woman with male god.
`It's cool, change our projection to extrapolation.
1. To infer or estimate by extending or projecting known information.
^What the extrapolation then?
`Take attributes of most potent expression of mystery and form and apply to mystery.
^How get potency?
`Must be universal, consistent, and obvious.
`Menstruation and it’s source; the womb.
`The only way. Unless you can think of one better?
`Source for every person alive, all women bleed, blood is obvious and consistent.
^I’m not sure, like, I don’t think so. But something inside of me do be clenching up.
`Yea, that’s to be expected. Fear of mystery and hence the womb was part of our evolution.
^Whatchumean part of our evolution?
`When we evolved and came across scarcity we fashioned our culture off of our experience of that scarcity and began projecting that experience onto mystery, thinking mystery was punishing us.
`Mystery has always been associated with the womb, so the womb received the projections as well.
`But think about it deeply though, are you really afraid of the womb?
^...No, not really.
`So then yeah, mystery womb.
^…what that even mean though?
`Womb attributes mystery’s attributes.
`Yeah life and death are both experienced within the womb.
^And like…round, but like a fruit kind-of round, not a circle?
^and like, everything’s in that roundness…
`You mean spherical.
`Yeah, everything is contained in a wholeness.
^Ok, so then...everything is supposed to be there working together to make that blood and roundness…like everything home and like family and stuff?
`Yes, every aspect contained within the womb is harmonically interconnected and belongs there, like chords of an all encompassing symphony.
^Dang, so that mean mystery all that?
`Yes, if we take the attributes of the most potent expression of mystery and apply it to mystery we have an all encompassing wholeness in which every part is harmonically interrelated.
^Dang, if I do that, then like I’m not even scared anymore!
^Like death in the womb.
^Everybody and everything is.
^And its all working together too!
^And then, like, you get to thinking of the mother of the womb,
^and shit start feeling all cozy…like that’s crazy for real!
`No beloved, versing the womb as mystery is very, very sane.
Part 2: Verse
^So, like, I remember getting it that time before.
^But like, seem like once I up and left the room I forget how I felt so good when I was wit you.
^And like, even when I thought about the WombVerse, like it didn’t seem to stick for real.
^Am I doing something wrong?
`What happened is cool, perfect even.
`Remember how we started the last conversation.
^You mean talking bout fear?
`Think anybody else shares that same fear?
^Shit it seem like everybody do for real.
`Yes they do.
^But, like, why when womb make so much sense?
^And, like, why I keep forgetting?
`Because fear isn’t only something everyone shares in common now, fear is something humanity has had collectively since the beginning.
^Man, how you know that for real? You wasn’t there.
`No, but the Metaformic theory makes sense.
`That the awakening of humanity first happened when women realized the interconnection between their menstrual blood, the cycles of the moon, and other women.
^Man, I done heard lots of theories,like one that we became human by eating happy mushrooms and shit.
^How you know we wasn’t eatin mushrooms while we was bleeding and like woke up that way.
`Maybe that did happen once or twice.
`But what’s significant about the entrainment of the womb is that it happens cyclically.
`Which means when we forgot, we were reminded, again and again until we remembered.
^But how we start remembering if we kept forgetting?
`We started making our own reminders/rituals.
`Menstruation rights were the first rituals.
^Aight, that’s all good and well but what that got to do with fear?
`Think we were afraid to forget?
`Especially as we began building families, communities, cultures…
^Shit that is scary.
^But what that got to do with me forgetting how to not be scared?
`What did we do to stop our fear from becoming our reality, to stop from forgetting in the beginning?
^We made rituals like you said.
`Yes we made ritual.
`And we made traditions out of those rituals.
`And even though the actions changed inevitably, like all things do, we tried to stick with the same things every time out of fear of doing the wrong thing and losing our awareness.
`So certain actions became taboo and doing some things and not others became culture.
`Which means the source of our culture, our traditions, our taboos today is?
^Oh shit! Fear!!
`Yes. Fear of falling back into the chaos of animal mind.
^But then, like aint that fear real then? Like relevant?
`Yes, it was real and relevant then. But now it’s not.
^I mean I know everything is connected and contained within the womb and all, but we could still forget that and lose ourselves.
^I mean, maybe it’s not likely, but if we start changing shit too drastically it’s possible.
`No it’s not.
^Man, there you go again! How you know?
`Because of the implications of the womb’s entrainment.
^What does that even mean?
^So the womb can entrain with, what, the cycles of the moon and other women.
^Like of course we’re connected to the moon and other women, that don’t mean we can’t forget though!
`Those two things aren’t the only things that the womb can entrain with.
^For real? What else then?
`The womb can entrain with zodiac signs.
^Word? But we didn’t have zodiac signs before culture?
^That had to be something that came after?
^I mean we couldn’t even hold thoughts, a whole, like, system of thought had to have happened later on, right?
`Right, which means the womb’s availability of entrainment evolved with humanity to include our concepts of thought.
^Then that means the womb includes our fear too, which makes it real then right?
^Shit, I knew it wasn’t no escaping it…
`Zodiac signs are one of the few concepts of the womb based on the implications of the womb developed by humanity so far.
^Are their others?
`I know of a few.
`Human Design. Some aspects of Quantum Physics. Susun Weed's Three Traditions and Judy Grahn's Metaformic theory definitely alludes to it.
^Ok, so what you’re saying is, like, our thoughts that support the concept of the womb as mystery are included in the wholeness.
^Which means we can’t forget them?
`Which means, once cultured to remember, can never be lost.
^But like I said in the beginning, I been trying to remember but I keep forgetting!
`How often do you remind yourself?
^I-dont-know, like once, nah twice a day!
`So let’s say you remind yourself 5-10 minutes a day.
`How often do you watch tv, look at magazines, billboards, talk to people, think old thoughts that are all culturing fear?
^...Shit...most the day.
`Exactly, which means you’re getting reminded of that fear most of the time.
`So like I said it’s cool that you keep forgetting.
`Because in effect, you need to build a whole culture around yourself, one that can compete with the fear culture.
`And it should be easier ultimately because your culturing something that you chose, something that makes sense by your own logic.
^But fear do make sense. I mean maybe not in the WombVerse, but like you said, it had a purpose.
`No, it never really made sense.
`It just made it possible for us to develop thought in the first place. Yes we needed a bit of fear in the beginning. And now we have the ability to think, understand the implications of the root of thought, and let the fear go.
^Dang, so like what you saying is, I gotta remind myself of womb as much as the fear culture reminds me of fear?
^That’s cra…I mean, that’s sane, real real sane…like for real.
Part 3: Cunt Consciousness
^Aight, I gotta be real.
^Like, I been versing the womb for a minute now.
^And all is groovy, like, fear really aint as big of a deal as much, and when it come up, I just gotta remind myself of the womb, and shit is better, more whole you know?
^But like, I gotta be real, like, the less fear I be feeling, the more feeling I be feeling, know-what-I-mean?
^…like especially around like my private parts.
^Now, I aint no freak, and I know it’s all contained in the womb, so I don’t think it’s bad or nothing.
^But like all the time though?! Like I don’t be knowing what to do with myself!
`That’s a profound insight. Let’s begin with this question:
`Where is the womb located?
^I mean, I guess near my genitalias.
`Yes, AKA your cunt.
`Here’s another extrapolation: We awoke because of the bloody cunt, we found the potency of the womb because of the birthing and bleeding cunt, why then wouldn’t we assume the cunt to have immense significance? In not only our burgeoning and understandings, but also in our moment to moment experience of existence?
^Aight, I guess that make sense…but for real, like all the time though?!
^And I mean it’s not even normal horny! Like I don’t want to, like, fornicate, but, like, I do want to feel...pleasure...I mean, it’s definitely sensual.
`So, up until recently your mind has been versing fear.
`You’re slowly culturing your mind into the womb, but in the process you still need to somehow make decisions within the womb. That’s where cunt comes in.
`Cunt is the expression of the womb, inextricably tied with the processes of the womb, and is able to independently communicate from the womb, to the mind, through the sensations of the body.
^So you saying I should go around trying to screw everybody and thing and that will tell me what to do in WombVerse?
`You don’t have to create the guidance from the womb by stimulating cunt. Just like you don’t have to project the womb onto mystery. It’s an extrapolation.
`The womb simply is the most potent expression of mystery, the cunt simply is the expression of the womb, therefore all that you need is already contained within and expressed from the womb by way of the cunt.
`It’s a process of tuning within yourself, not tuning within other people.
^So you saying I should touch myself then?
`I’m not saying you should or shouldn’t touch yourself. But to tune, you don’t need to do anything in particular, just do what you normally do and perceive and remind yourself that your womb is the source of your every experience. Perceive and honor the palpable feelings from the cunt that happen before, during, and after each thought and experience.
`Inwardly feel from the cunt or root and over time you’ll begin to perceive something that seems like it’s an expression from within you, a unique and familiar texture of existence that is engaging from within you with all else. That’s your chord, your unique being that’s already deeply aware of the implications of the womb; an underlying harmonic interconnection of all aspects and overall wholeness of existence. That being consciously within the celestial womb that was always contained as your own womb. That being knows what to do, where to go, knows the harmonic chord of each moment.
^So me being strange horny...
`Is your womb bringing your attention to your already guided perception.
^But what about people that don’t got wombs and cunts?
`We were all born from women. We all start off as women. We all contain the woman chromosome. The process of inwardly tuning into your own pleasure and feeling principle is available to everyone. Women are simply more inclined because of their cunt design. But men, being so intimately connected with women from the beginning have the innate capability as well.
^Wow, thats…jah…uhh, sexy. Lol